Every journey starts with that first step. And any journey that is worth anything will be nerve-racking. It needs to be. It needs to scare you because you are pursuing a journey that is worth taking. A journey that will mean something to you and if you are like me, to others. You see, I don’t do what I do for myself but for others. It has always been this way. If I look back throughout my life, I see it over and over. Now, when it is being expressed in a negative way, it comes across as people-pleasing. But through conversations with a very good friend, what I have learned is that it is that deep desire to serve others that is at the heart of everything I do.
And if we want to get real personal and deep, I think it is because I never felt like I had that someone for me through the worst of the worst in my life. That is not fair to say because I have had my wife for the last 20 years, but I think you understand what I am saying. Growing up, my household was full of chaos and if I dare say, trauma. That is a hefty and big word to be throwing out there but now that I am able to look back at things and have a sense of what normal looks like, I realize that wasn’t it. I had a great sister and she did the best with me in spite of the other challenges we had but in reality, we were both broken people doing our best to survive.
And thus, the journey continues. Better Everyday has always been a bit of a mantra for me even before I realized it. I have always been drawn to ways to get better every single day. You can ask Resa how much I talked about the doctorate I was going to do even before I had my bachelor’s degree. Sure, I was looking (and still am) for validation and worth. I would be lying if that is not part of it for me. I am finally at a place where I am self-aware to know that this plays a part in it. But I don’t dare let that keep me from pursuing health and healing. I don’t let this stop me from moving forward the way that God built me, always looking for being better everyday and more importantly helping others be better everyday. And even in those times where we deal with the setbacks and the additional pain that is thrown upon us, we keep moving forward. One. Day. At. A. Time. Because we are committed to a better tomorrow than our yesterday.
This blog post and Better Everyday is the beginning of another journey for me. Or is it just another step on this bigger journey. Probably both. But I welcome you in and I look forward to taking the next steps with you and if I am lucky, I will help you in your journey as well.
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